Monologue

Serenade me with songs of hate,
tattered with my bitter fate.
Scream out loud with horrible pain,
a symphony that would drive me insane.

Sing a song of mourning and death.
Sing it 'til you're out of breath.
Orate a poem of lasting sadness,
a masterpiece that's filled with madness.

Vocalize what you feel inside you.
Don't stop 'til your face turns blue.
If you hate the world then shout out loud,
"I hate the world and I am proud."

Late Resolution

Dusk of year in my mind, away; but still there.
Yet it is far, so easy and so calm.
But near of time; when trace not found in palm.
A rusty mind cover the words of fear.
As it dwell in wreckage; erase the past.
The lethal lava melted the reason,
wickedness enlarge the hurt of season.
Behind the ornament of shining dust
oath was wrote over the leaflet; white clear
A thought of change had changed to change the
changed.
Dreams slow, veto reach through the law of change.
And eyes of lame refuse to sight the ere
For nothing, no one makes a life so clean,
of blind, hope long impossibility was condemned.

Enough

Walking into the desert
With pure sand in sight.
A dreadful feeling, a rush for life
rumpus emerged into the body,
an oasis was found to purge
my worries.

But what did I find?
As stagnate nature,
it was just a burglar who stole my emotion.

It made the place stale,
an immutable feeling.
A grip of blood on teh ground and
I found myself, bleeding.

But I must inhume the shodow,
And this immortal kind of pa in.
And forget the burglar who took up piece of myself
I must open my umbrella in the middle of the rain.

Arrow

In the midst of desperate sorrow,
here comes a firing arrow.
Aiming to strife the bull's eye,
in an unrhymed wind that is in rage.

Storm-gust is in my sight.
Undetermined pulse is in the heart.
Without vision, I can't contain,
to pursue this dream into reality.

An arrow appeared to be me,
no one knws where I'll be.
Just the Almighty Archer directs me
to the fullest extent I'll be.

I do long to endure this pain,
not to fall and stand still again,
All I can do is to bend mu knees and pray,
and draw out the best in me.

Insanity

I feel like dying,
from all the problems that made me feel blaming.
It's very complicated from what I'm feeling,
that's why all I do is writing.

Writing makes me ease the pain,
the pain I felt when I'm insane.
I can't hurriedly write when I'm not insane,
so thank God for the experience that I gain.

Addiction

Summer that year was a tragedy.
Tears of regret rolled down hid face.
He was given another chance
where nobody could stop him doing vice.

He said that he would change
yet he regarded his promise
for just a couple of times
a broken vow-an evidence of subservience
to the deadly bondage of sin.

His friends tried to change him,
but no one could fathom his whim.
He ramained selfish and aggrieved.
Yet he never knew that his friends grieved
for his self-catadysmic acts.

Now, he's better but no one could tell,
his internal struggle remains unsettled.
The cure for his malady is on him.
The malady, if not cured, will remqin for him
forever.

Sorrows Were Sweet

The soundless scream of my inner,
tried to awaken a doubtful winner;
I should prove to them nothing,
'cause this world never had been listening.

I want to talk
but they reside into noi sy sidewalk
I want to sing,
but in their ears live sting

I want to die,
but my shoelaces were not yet tied
And I want to quit,
but I realized that sorrows were sweet.

Loved

You are the one who put
me together;
whose comforting hands
are everywhere...
Keeping in touch
when ever I need the most;
Never will leave me everytime
I shout "I'm lost"...
When troubles come and
hurts strike me;
You're always there
to protect me...
My lover is mine
and I am His;
I will give to Him
my full service...
For Him I am the rose of Sharon
a lily of the valleys;
To him I offer my praise...
You rescue me from my
deepest hurt;
and you put a rainbow inside
my heart...
indeed your love
never fails;
You proved it when your hands
were striked with nails...

Melancholy

So peaceful and yet
so disturbing

a lonely candle
amidst the diabolic darkness

All alone; no one but myself!

My heart is lamenting,

it's screaming in pain.

I'm close to being dead

Silent,

Lifeless...

So peaceful and yet so disturbing.

Under the Vehement Sky

I sat in solitude
calm as the dark blue sky,
while the crescent moon interlude
a sudden rush of emotion made me sigh.

All alone I wondered,
my shadow joining my night
wishing to see the silhouette of the man I adored
to share with me one eminent sight.

Cold wind blew which added to my longing
that he be with me as he held me close.
His arms giving me security and caring
a low hissing of words like a prose.

Once more I looked up and this time I smiled.
Waiting for one moment that together we lie,
]in my heart I feel he's been with me all the while.
For still we are under the same vehement sky.

Vampirism

A stake through my heart
it tears my life apart.
How could you do this?
Whatever went amiss?

Though I never bit you
you made me feel blue,
and though you had a tasty neck
I looked at it, at a different aspect.

It's you should've been hypnotized.
Yet I was the one, who has been mesmerized
You are such a tramp

I had you by my side.
But I couldn't bite even if I tried.
Such desire makes me lose sanity.
It's a bitter experience
of vampires like me.

I Hope and Wait

I cannot count the days!
Ridiculed by my excitement
but God's will is what I should wait
I can't believe...But I must be abdicated.
Poly means many.
So I say I am polyproblematic
WAnting instant answers
by words of encouragement.

The scope of my understanding.
it covers...nothing...nothing!
I love to see comfort approaching
but unwilling to sacrifice what a living!

Who am I as myself?
Whoa! No one can differentiate herself!
Either from others or from a good model
be revealed in biblical level!

Has nothing to do or has nothing to boast for
at present, today, yesterday and tomorrow.
Blessed I am, I dream and I breathe.
I should feel the moment I'm right here at peace.

I hope and i wait..
Forget the wrong-thoughts that the devil is putting
in my head.
Battle cries are prepared by prayers,
correct me, Lord, 'cause I'm hurrying for an answer.

I Am A New Creation

Miserable and lost; I am before,
full of loneliness and unending sore.
Crying every night without someone by my side,
wishing there is someone to shed my tears
and be my guide.

Every day and night I search and seek;
In darkness i am getting very weak.
Not knowing that there is someone waiting,
waiting for me to hear His calling.

Until one day, He knocked once again;
Yes! I have heard Hid voice.
It was Jesus, and I opened the door then.
He entered inside and rejoiced.

Thanks be to God!
I have found the answer at last.
It is Jesus that I ever needed;
Before, now, until the end.

My happiness goes on and on,
For anyone is in Christ is a new creation;
The old has gone, the new has come.

Now is the day of salvation.
And I am a new creation.

Vengeance

I'd been the best that I could
but there was really nothing good.
It's really not that fair,
I'm now living in despair.

They always want me to descend,
I just can't understand.
It's always been me that they see.
they really want to get rid of me.

They simply hate me,
they have shown no care,
how can I call it such fair?

It is me that they blame,
it's on me they put shame.
I know I've done nothing wrong,
and now , I can't take it long.

Now that I realize,
I'll bring them to mesmerize.
It's time for their acceptance,
I'll return them my vengeance.

Separate Ways

I never thought one day,
That to my friends, I would be away,
A friendship we are just starting
To let it enhance, were trying.

We've been together
Through sorrows and laughter,
Moments we've all fears, together we dared.

My smiles were vanishing
And tears of mine are falling
What was that for?

The oneness, ended up divided,
The unity, perhaps also ended
However, I'm hoping with sincerity
That we'll soon be brought
by our faith and loyalty.

I believe we'll be friends until tomorrow.
I know we're all just starting to grow
But still, these trials - together we will face
Through we already go our
Separate Ways.

In Disguise

It is your unique kind that
made me fall
Your different mood that
excites me most
it is your cocky style that
makes me laugh
though you shed tears, for me
you always seems tough

yes, you are sometimes rude
and you hurt me with that
but you are trying to prove to
me that you are not like that
you are also selfish and so not
seem to care
but when the time
you love me
it seems that you also learn
to share

baby, it is okey, i believe
in you
everything will be okey,
because you have just
been true
do not worry because
i trust you
have no doubt baby,
i love you

they say you are a bad guy
they say that you are not
worth it for the love i gave
they say that you are good
in lying
but i do not believe them
because i know
who you are and
what you show